WE ARE THE....SHRINKING DIVA'S

Ok I have been missing in action for the last two weeks I and thousands of other American were hit with a moster size strain of the flu. I was out of it for quite some time and if I could have missed work I would have, but the world does not stop because you are sick. Unfourtunately my work outs did suffer and so did my eating habits, for days I could not eat so I dranked my calories when I could not eat and when I did eat I could not taste the food so i ate just to know I was eating. BIG mistake I put on 5 pounds I am 224.5 so it is back to the drawing board...I know I may not win the actual competition due to this little set back , but I will win my battle against my weight and I am cheering for all of you - Tasha 

I worked out 3 times this week for 45 minutes a pop and I only lost two pounds ...ok maybe I need to look at calories going into the furnace instead of how it is being burned, because I know I am working out hard but the weight is coming off so  slowly I can only pray that I am half way to my desired weight by May. I see everyone doing so great and Even though I am proud of all of you in this journey to better health I want so badly to be apart of that 5 pound a week group. And here is the kicker the weight may not be coming off as fast as I would like it but I am definetly passing the clothes test there looser on me my coat not as tight as it used to be... ah the benefits of weight loss in inches. Kim I know you are hitting it hard  but keep on trucking honey we have an entire website of support. I am going to make a personal challenge to myself I am going to get into the gym 4 times this week and push it to the limit. I have to do this get focused wake up and smell the coffee. Wish me luck!!!

Ok I am the first to admit I hit a brick wall and I will be the first to admit that this was just a week I did not perform my best, but I did not lose not one measly pound not even a half of pound. I need to call in reinforcement to get be back to performing the way I was during week 1-3. I know Kim is have a much better week than I and I hope she will forgive me for the candy bars (the evil candy bars). I knew something like this was going to happen I just did not think I would not lose anything man I am having a white team wife moment in week two. I made an appointment with a trainer at the gym and he said I will see better results by the end of February cause he is going to kick my butt- I say"let's do it". So my first session is today and he is promising to push me to the limit ...

 So I am ending week four- month one with 6 pounds lost the second month will be much better. Here go in to week Five and I am ready.

 

 

This has been the hardest week for me stress, evil candy bars lack of cardio and entering my own hall of truth. I always knew that my eating habits affected my kids I have been eating poorly for the past 11 years of my eldest daughter's life and since I have been watching what I eat and how I eat I have noticed the effect of my poor eating on my children especially my oldest daughter. I had my daughter pretty young and let's face it I had a fast metabolism and I shoveled everything down my throat not thinking that my daughter was watching me imitating my eating habits. When she was old enough to eat hefty amounts of food we would have food eating contests to see who could get the most down the fastest. This!!! was the skill I was teaching my daughter When her sister came along I  guess I matured a bit my eating habits became less gross and I got into the mommy mode a little better, the problem is that I never really retrained my daughter how to eat. Well fast forward to this week we are at the dinner table eating turkey tacos and she is just pushing it into her mouth like there will be no more food ever!! there's sour cream dribling out of her mouth and she can barely chew what she has before she puts more in. I looking and I want to yell so bad but I can 't looking at her I see how I used to eat and she is just eating how I taught her. I am saddened by how my life has been the issues I have  with food and weight has really taken me out of my children's lives. I owe them so much I want to start with a healthier mom.

 

Now since this challege has started I have lost a total of 6 pounds my weigh in days are on saturday and I am praying praying praying with some workouts in between that I have lost four pounds  this week for a total of ten glorious pounds in the month of January my fingers are crossed and my treadmill at the club is waiting I will keep you posted first thing on saturday with photos and a new blog.

Kim I know you are working hard I will see you at the gym!!!

Speaking of photos here are my photos I promised you with MR. MARTY WOLFE, Kae and Amy

WOOO HOOOO Its' Sunday....didn't think i would make it through last night but here i am!! Saturday was such a terrible day that by the time i had left, i was ready to either drink myself into denial or grab some oreos and milk and eat the frustration and pain away. UGH,...that is so frustrating that for all of these years instead of dealing with things, i just ate them away. The more i ate, the less things hurt. I realize more every day that my weight is a giant shield to keep people/things from hurting me!!! WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE STOP ME??? Well, deep down i know the answers but that is for a differnt day... Anyway, on the drive home from work, all i could think of was coming home and grabbing some crap food that used to help with whatever situation i was in usualy that was something sweet like dunkin donuts or cookies. My car veered several times but ...instead, i came home, changed clothes and we over to  Tasha's house for support and inspiration. She was awesome as usual...we laughed, and talked for hours about things and even turned on Bob's cardio video to watch the inspirational stories and get me motivated again. AHHHH Bob..how you manage to do it for me..... anyway tomorrow is monday, tasha and I are both off and planning on walking and hangin out. we are supposed to get a snowstorm but tasha is a trooper and i am sure will have me out there anyway!! Well bob and jillian would!!